I notice my libido seems to skyrocket when I’m away from my partner (he works out of town for 8 day increments), and I really enjoy masturbating. I masturbate around 1-2 times a week.
But when my partner comes home, my libido plummets to almost nothing and I am left feeling very guilty. We have sex almost every other day, and it’s just not very enjoyable for me at all.
Background context:
My partner and I have been together for 6 years. Before this, I had a high sex drive (most likely fueled by trauma). I got pregnant very early in the relationship and sex after pregnancy was quite a challenge for me. I breastfed for 4 years, and I didn’t have much of a sex drive during that time.
We were intimate about once a month, perhaps longer, up until this past year.
The sex is good, my partner is VERY kind and very generous, and they always ask for consent.
They do, however, guilt-trip me quite often if we do not consistently have sex while he is home.