This might sound like a dumb question and i dont even know if overthinking is the right word for it, but I feel like I’m way too aware of all the stuff going on with me. I constantly analyze my social behavior, my emotions, my actions and think about life in general. Now of course it’s good to reflect and be aware of potential mistakes etc but I feel like it is just holding me back and draining me. Every social interaction I wonder if I could have done something better and analyse my behavior while I’m still talking. When talking to a girl I like it gets even more extreme and it kind of kills my funny and witty side because my brain is overestimated with thinking about every word I say and every move I make instead of just having a normal conversation.
Also, constantly being so aware of my emotions and how they are affecting my behavior is weird, because it almost feels like I’m viewing myself from outside and not actually feeling the emotions. Even writing this post feels weird as I am analyzing how I feel about it, what has caused me to write it, and what the point in writing it even is in wayyyy too much detail.
No idea if that makes sense or anybody else feels that way, but how can I live more in the moment and just feel life?