So I know that sounds bad but hear me out. I am a 19 yo man and when I get horny and decide to jerk off I usually pull up either an erotica story or a porn video. But I feel weird since I do it not because I need the content to get horny but because it feels weird to jerk off just by myself. I find when I try to jerk off and like think up a scenario or something I find myself getting distracted and just forgetting I was horny. My brain just can’t shut up and usually starts to wander to things that are not sexy and I just forget I was horny and want to go do something else. But then I find myself horny again later because I never actually finished the job. So I find having a video or erotica just holds my attention long enough to finish the deed and move on. And I know porn is bad but I feel weird jerking off to like a random YouTube video. I do lean towards erotica though since porn tends to feel gratuitous and kind of stupid. At least erotica can have good plots and loving relationships that don’t feel shallow. Idk it might just be an adhd problem or a phone brain rot problem but I’m low key worried its a porn addiction so I thought I’d ask here. So I guess I’m asking do I have a problem? Or am I just weird?