First, I want to apologize for my English; it is not my first language.
I think I already know the answer, but maybe I’m being clingy or asking for too much?
We started talking about four or five months ago, but we first saw each other in December of last year. Sometimes she ghosts me with and without reasons; for instance, sometimes she travels, or one time her phone broke (supposedly). Our first date was super short, like two hours, because she had to go shopping with her dad (it was a day before her mom’s birthday). Then she invited me to a party with her friends, and I really loved it. They told me that she was really into me, that she doesn’t bring girls into the group, as it is something important for her (which is strange since it was our second date). They also told me to be patient with her, that she doesn’t communicate much, and sometimes she ghosts people for like a month, but that’s just her. At first, I was okay with it, but now this dynamic is hurting me a little.
She also told me she stops using social media for several days when she needs a break or is feeling sad. Also, she doesn’t say romantic or nice things often, but allegedly she shows her feelings in other ways, like spending time with the other person because she’s always busy (studies a career, has one job, is on a football team, she takes care of her little brother sometimes, and spends time with her friends when she can). So yeah, I’m not a priority, and it’s okay. I also prioritize my job and career, but I CAN make time; I can text her, I can see her (we live a few blocks away).
A few weeks ago, she invited me to another party with her friends, but then she canceled the plans a few hours before the event. She told me that she wasn’t in the mood for going out. I replied, and then she ghosted me for like 3 days, then appeared like nothing happened, sharing me a random tier list that she made.
In my country, this is a really hard time for college students. Sometimes the entire year depends on the exams that you take in Feb/March. She told me she will not be texting me so often because of this, so yeah, we haven’t been in touch since like two weeks ago.
I like spending time with her and texting her, but we never do. I don’t want to justify her; she may have reasons for acting like this, but I don’t like it. Even she told me that I deserve more time and that she’s sorry, but her priority was her career. Which again, it’s fine, but in almost five months, we saw each other two times, one for two hours, and the other one we weren’t even alone.
I’m feeling stupid asking this but, this is not okay right?