Hello! I (21F) became pregnant at age 19. My parents lived abroad so my partner’s parents and mine decided to let me stay in my partner’s (22M) house while I’m pregnant.
Cut the story short, I was well taken care of, but his mother was emotionally draining. I think she has an undiagnosed mental condition. She’d explode out of nowhere and vent her anger towards my partner. I’ve seen her bite, hit, and throw things at him. It was the worst.
As a result, I’ve seen my partner’s vulnerability and understood why he was so dependent and weak. He could not even decide for himself because he was so used to his mother deciding for everyone (including his siblings).
As time went by, I am starting to look at him as a child and not as a partner. He is so responsible and taking care of me. But I am now looking at him through his mother’s eyes. This resulted to me losing sexual attraction to him.
There would be days where I’ll make excuses just for him to not touch me sexually. Sometimes at night, I’ll mistake his touch as an invitation and would reject him right away.
I love him so much but I just do not know how to get my libido back after birth. The sex we had daily just went to once or none at all in a month.
I am not cheating nor attracted to someone else.
I just want to have my libido back because I know sex is vital in our relationship.