For some backstory, I’ve been a gay woman growing up. As a child until teenage-hood, I attended many only girls schools. I knew I was into women at the age of 7. I’ve had multiple relationships with girls and thought I’d stay that way forever. However, it was not until I met someone at 17 where I questioned my sexuality. Im not gonna go in too depth about it but just know I did end up catching feelings for him as he was consistent with wooing me. It was a new and odd feeling for me. Something that made me feel guilty.
Anyway fast forward, Im 19. We’re still together and shit is great. Super healthy relationship and good sex life(I think). He obviously and clearly loves me and I have explained to him my past and he is always accepting. We’ve had sex multiple times the past years and I love him with all my heart. However, I find myself constantly asking close friends how to please a man. I feel insecure that with his past exes, he could have sex 24/7, get head, etc. I feel that I am not enough and oftentimes I catch myself oversexuallizing myself to simply please him. We already had a big talk about this topic but he’s a very “it’s okay I don’t mind.” So this is a me a problem. I feel like I’m not enough. I still feel like I don’t know what I’m doing. I just need more insight on this , please.