Me and my boyfriend were having intercourse last night when he started to finger me really fast and hard. It felt good so I relaxed my body and I guess squirted. He basically just stopped and was like confused. He then look at the part of the sheets that were wet and got kinda grossed out. He told me “if you have to piss then go do it”. I felt really bad. I was more surprised because I had never done that before and didn’t know I could. He told me it’s fine but then said it grosses him out and to not do it. I don’t know if i can control it because he just goes really hard. I have heard squirt is just like pissing but it wasn’t me peeing it was just a leak. Then he wanted to try it again to see if I could do it and then it happened again. then. He told me to never do it during sex or he would be grossed out. Now i feel ashamed about it. I didn’t plan on doing it and i haven’t before, but it feels weird knowing that it’s just a reaction from my body and he finds it that disgusting. Should I try and hold back from it? Or should i let my body react and make him get used to it? What even is squirting? Sorry if this is tmi i didn’t know exactly what else to post it on.
edit: okay so update, im getting a lot of feedback on this post and i want to get more into detail. he told me he wants me to feel pleasured but that he doesn’t want it on him or his bed. he said only in the shower if it does happen, which i dont think would happen due to the fact shower sex really isn’t good. but he just told me it wasn’t his thing. obviously there were mixed emotions when it first happened but we talked more about it. i told him that if it happens it happens, and he said i need to clean it up which is understandable. it’s just the fact that every time it might happen moving forward it’s the sudden fact that it would be turning him off. the most confusing thing is he will have period sex but a clear liquid that actually makes me wetter turns him off.