Hello everyone. I have something that has been eating me inside for a long time. I was always the typical girl who was quite shy and insecure. Let’s say that since I was little I occupied little space in social environments, I let myself go (evidently to a limit, I’m not an idiot). And it’s not something I dislike. I enjoy when I am accompanied by people with more character who set the guidelines more, as long as this does not imply that these people govern me or tell me what is right or not to do. The fact is that I have always been like that with my friends. And I am also with my partner. I like to do everything, so I adapt more to the tastes of others. If someone proposes a plan to me, I will most likely say, come on! However, although this does not pose a problem for me with my partner and most of my friends, I do have a problem with a friend. More than a problem, it is an inferiority complex. She is the complete opposite. She is super clear about what she wants in her life. She is clear about her tastes, her passions. She is strong-willed. She doesn’t let herself be dominated. She is much braver. And for a long time I adapted to her, to her tastes. And unlike the rest, she went through a selfish stage. And she got angry when she couldn’t do what she wanted. And I paid a lot for those dishes. Now she has more friends, since she lives in another city, and she has that vibrant life that she wanted, the result of that lively and strong personality. However, I am much more homely, fearful, with less character or vital force. I recognize myself like this, I don’t want to take it as something bad in itself, because it’s who I am. It’s not like I want to change, it’s literally the way I am. What you think about this? How can I assume that she has all that positive and also see other positive things in me. Sometimes the comparison makes me feel like a weak, boring, or weak-willed woman. Does anyone else feel this way?

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