I’m only 18 but a couple of days before my birthday I had a realization that I will have to die one day and so will the rest of my family. My whole belief system shattered and the first month after the realization was really hard but I am appreciating life more and am open with loved ones more than I was before. After a couple weeks of nihilism I can say my heads a bit more centered now but I really just can’t shake it off completely.