Sighs, as a grown adult in 20s I’m still feeling so insecure overwhelmed and constantly defeated by the world. Like whenever there is time for actions, my brain just goes switch off mode. Idk what to do. Time just goes by and each year goes in waste. Then the feeling of regret or burden tends to pop up and you start to self sabotage. Like I’m being a victim of myself or that feeling like I’m in prison for my benefit. Im supposed to be doing so many things and actually live in the reality of life rather than my head. Bcuz all it’s doing is overthinking and get mixed emotions feelings thoughts. It’s just a repetitive cycle..
I wanna go see a different city but I just can’t go cuz I hate the discomfort and socializing as I’m not even proud of myself. I haven’t achieved anything and don’t have the communication skills to keep a conversation flowing. I thought moving to another city will give new experience and life can be change for the better but I just don’t wanna go like all I wanna do is sit in misery