So we met online, we started talking as friends and have been for the past 4 months. She got tickets to come see me and the time to meet is arriving. My problem isn’t meeting her at all, it’s the fact that I’ve come to realize I love her but I don’t like her physically. She is not my type at all. And the worst part about it is I guilt myself because I know women like her are difficult to find. I can tell that she has fallen for me and she said I was very attractive to her but asked me as a favor not to get into a relationship if when we met I didn’t like her physically.
I cant help but feel like a massive jerk and a shallow and mean person, at my age (38) its very difficult to find a woman who cares and values you the way she does to me. And my dream has always been to build a family, something she also wants. Its like we match perfectly except for me not being attracted to her. Idk what to do. You dont get many chances like this in life. Ive gone through a lot of break ups and have ended up in the position I am now but I dont want to settle either.
Am I a terrible person? What should I do? What if I end up being alone and never having a family because of my crappy judgement? Need some advice. Thanks.