I had great social skills in high school, but was never invited to hang out, and somehow during the time where people formed their social groups I was never able to. I grew up in an incredibly unstable and abusive home so I was never able to do any sports or have anyone over, but I don’t understand why I was so invisible and irrelevant when plenty of people didn’t do sports and were not that way. Why didn’t people approach me, and why when I made in-class friends with people was there no effort to hang out? So many people never even had to approach anyone in the first place to be approached, but for some reason I was just so unlikeable despite being talkative and nice to everyone and willing to talk to anyone? It seems like everyone had a life outside school except me, because I only ever interacted with people inside school except my one close friend and a couple of times with two people as no one ever was interested in having a real friendship with me, yet everyone I talked to seemed to like me decently. Am I missing something, or did my home life just make me unlikeable?
I wish I could have experienced adolescence like the other kids did, but there was nothing to differentiate between my adolescence and any other time period of life because it was just so unremarkable and empty and alone. I never got to go do things with people, and it’s kind of sad because I have never found anyone who related and it seems I missed out on an enjoyable and unique part of life.