As the title suggests, I need to get rid of a fetish. I (22M) have had a fat fetish since i discovered feederism/gaining as a child. I would say I’m into somewhat extreme stuff; which is where my problem comes from. I get off to that kinda stuff pretty regularly, but now I’m feeling conflicted. I recently saw a video of this woman who was a victim of sexual abuse involving her boyfriend who was a feeder (who specifically was into deathfeederism). The way she talked about it and as I scrolled through the comments of people lamenting similar experiences has left me feeling really bad and honestly uncomfortable with my own fantasies.
I’ve thought about trying to get away from this kinda stuff but it always pulls me back. It’s already made a past relationship rocky and I don’t want a repeat of that. I’m so embarrassed I literally made a throwaway account to make this post.. If there’s any way to do anything to get rid of this I want/need to know. Therapy is unfortunately out of the question, so any advice is appreciated.