This is my first day on Reddit and need an advice maybe from the internet since im not that open with my both parents. The main problem is i don’t have the will to live and didnt put any interest at all right now and feels like im an empty souless human. all i do is just live and with my current self without having a personality at all. and my behaviour towards people is now changing and you can say its not in polite state. i always replying to both parents with flat expression and tone and that always happened whenever i get stressfull. Im mad at myself that can’t get better day by day and hoping i wasn’t born at all, if only that 50/50 percent change live is not giving me life and better let me die while my parents hoping i will breathe. Im so fucked up i cant continue life like and feel so guilty for my parents since they put me in private school and spent hundres dollar for my education fee. i always thinking that i have a burden to repay them back but somehow feel depressed since i can’t be a better person and how exactly i could repay them if im being a fucking coward and idiot at the same time. I almost commit suicide since im to hopeless about myself