My boyfriend (M20) Thinks I’m ugly, because, well, I (F18) am
So, I was talking to my boyfriend about the day we first met, and I said, joking, that I couldnt believe a guy like him would dm a girl like me, mainly because he first saw me at a concert and I was soaking in sweat and had smudged makeup all over my face. Then, he proceed to tell sweet things about the day we first met, until he started talking about the fact that beauty isn’t everything, that even a friend we have in common (that usually wears short clothing and is really beautiful etc) wouldn’t be like that forever because beauty is temporary. Well, he basically called me ugly, I’m not dumb. The thing is, I actually am. That’s a dumb question but I don’t really know how to deal with my emotions now. Should I feel offended? of course reading that broke my heart, but after some thought, I realized that considering that I’m actually ugly, maybe he’s just being honest instead of lying to me? Maybe that’s better? I don’t know. I feel so bad right now, knowing he’s with a girl that he probably doesn’t feel attracted to. we started dating 6 months ago, and it has been perfect, it’s still perfect. Honestly this is more venting than seeking advice, sorry. just wanted to talk to someone about this.
after he said that, I said, joking, haha u didn’t need to call me straight up ugly!! but don’t worry I understood what you meant. He then started apologizing desperately, honestly I shouldn’t have said that, because I made him feel guilty for being honest. anyways, he said that I’m pretty, the prettiest for him. I made him lie because he felt guilty. maybe he isn’t lying. I don’t know. I just wanted to be pretty. I just wanted to be pretty.
tldr my boyfriend thinks I’m ugly because I am. not sure how to deal with it