No joke but why can’t I be some dude like chief keef or young dolph who gives zero fucks instead I’m some nerdy white virgin with glasses who can’t even keep eye contact with a girl. The only time I can come close to being like this is when I get drunk but that comes with its own problems. All I want is to stop caring what other people think about me and just live me life but no my brain is ass and it’s like pulling teeth for me to even talk to a stranger who is a guy (I’m not gay) you can imagine how taking to a girl is next level shit for me.