Welllll in some ways speed friending was a bust!
The good is I did get to talk to lots of people AND some1 asked to swap numbers & we did so that’s great. I had a nice drink & I liked the venue & I’m proud of myself for doing it.
HOWEVER!
At certain times I felt awful cos about 2-3 times nobody came over!
Also I saw some people mingling at the bar or going to other tables at times. I didn’t want to mingle at the bar for a few reasons one being the drinks were expensive!
And the first person gave me a stone face look (before the event started so I moved away!)
But with one person, the host suggested she talk to me & she basically refused & went to talk to some of the hosts & a couple of the other speed frienders.
I don’t smell I dressed nicely & I was smiling. But it just felt terrible like if they said that to ME I would have needed a damn good reason not to go & talk to that person.
I had to go a long way,
Paid for a ticket AND bought a quite expensive drink. I also had to get dinner in the area cos of the timing.
And I’m glad I went cos it’s a good challenge & out of my comfort zone & FYI I DO have friends.
But I just felt a bit shit, you know?
And during the breaks nobody came over & talked to me. So I just used my phone.
It was good for conversation practice & also I asked someone I know (on my way home) to send me funny memes cos I needed cheering up & they did!
But my GOD how fucking shit must I come across to these people?
Rounds were 5 mins.
I’m most likely gonna go to another social event later this week with a group that I’ve been to 2 other events & it was nice. And I hope it’s a pallet cleanser.
Yes I was one of the oldest there but it’s not like I’m an OAP. And even if I had been would it have KILLED them to come over & talk to me? I really tried guys! 😢
Am I really THAT hideous?