I missed out on a lot of important milestones when I was younger. I chose not to go out much and therefore did not experience things a normal teenager is supposed to experience. I also started college during the peak of covid so I was more or less at home during my earliest 20s, so I didn’t even get to experience the typical college life people love to talk about.
A little over a year ago I decided I was tired of living this way and stopped playing video games and forced myself to do things I wanted to do but was too afraid to attempt, and that includes socializing. I started going out (and drinking) and meeting new people, I’ve never been in better shape, I’m contemplating getting my first ever tattoo, I’m experimenting with clothing and hairstyles, and all around doing and experiencing things people typically experience during their teenage years.
I feel kind of sad that I didn’t get to go through this sooner because I feel like I’m in the later years were partying and having fun is even acceptable (people are starting to “settle” and fix their personalities), but I’m just learning how to let go and have fun for the first time of my life and I’m not quite ready to let that go yet. Is this weird?