For context: I am 20f, and my partner is 20m, we have been together for 5 years.
I have not enjoyed sex. This has been an ongoing issue for the better half of a year. Not only do I not enjoy it/feel like doing it, Every single time after I’ve had sex I either feel like crying or just full on break down. Usually I can hold myself back. My partner and I have been trying to fix this, we’ve gotten cuffs and blindfolds and gags and whatnot (I’m into light bdsm, and I like getting hurt) but nothing seems to be working. We’ve tried taking a break from sex, and that too hasn’t helped. This weekend was the first time we did anything in a month, and right after he finished I just broke down. I felt gross. I’m getting nervous that I’m no longer sexually attracted to him anymore. And I feel awful about that, since I know he was a MUCH higher Sex drive than me. I just don’t want to have sex with HIM anymore. My therapist suggested that we take a break from our relationship so that we can figure out how this will work. Any advice is greatly appreciated.