…and no, I’m not trying to follow the stoicism philosophy. I just mean that compared to my peers, I’m a bit too enthusiastic about stuff. I openly show emotions and interests. Is it bad to want to show less of that?
For example, in History class, the teacher would drop a sad fact. I’d be one of, if not the only ones who would show an expression. It sometimes I’d talk about little things like how pretty the sky looks or how cool a chord progression sounds in a song or random emotions. If someone announces good news, I do a little clap. I over explain/give too much detail to small things. I find that not many people my age do things like that. I feel like a lot of my peers seem “dead inside”, at least from my point of view.
I do want to seem a little less…filled with child-like wonder. It makes me feel immature around my classmates. I want to react less. I can still feel stuff on the inside, but on the outside I’m chill and quiet. Especially since I become an adult soon (I’m 16 rn). What adult does a little claps after getting a happy announcement? I just feel like I’m weird…