Hi all!
So, posting this I already know it may sound as a weird awkward and even delusional dude. I have socially anxiety even though I’m generally out with friends and stuff..
Small context: I’m trying to finish my PhD and at the same time I have a work because my supervisor quitted academia. For that reason, every Saturday I got with some friends to a coffee with laptops and work. A waitress there is a friend’s friend. She is like super super beautiful and I’m like nothing special I guess.
Incident: The last two times she was generally more talkative to me, asking abt stuff I brought there to eat. Etc. And this Saturday she playfully mocked me that a fruit juice I had looked like shit. She even remembered what fruits I had the previous Saturday. I was somewhat frozen and responded solely about fruits. Like I couldn’t turn the conversation to something more personal. And because of that, I felt semi cringe and even left like 2 eu for tip which is a lot and I felt like I shouldn’t do it because I would seem like buying her likeness out? I don’t know.
I realize these are all overthinking overanalyzing stuff as you can imagine, I have the tendency of doing so with all my life aspects 🙁
Could you just tell me that I’m delusional and that it means shit and probably she was just being polite or just finds me funny cuz she knows I’m somewhat shy?
Ty for making it till here and sorry for wasting ur time