I (20F) struggle a lot with eye contact in general, I can never hold someone’s gaze for longer than a few seconds and its even worse with my partner (20F) of 3 months because I can barely look at him at all.
He frequently talks about how much he likes to look at me and just watch me in general, which is undeniably cute but it also makes me feel a little guilty as I can never hold his gaze.
He took note of this and thinks its a cute quirk, but I don’t know how to express the fact that it’s something I genuinely struggle with.
We haven’t gone all the way yet, but I worry that when the time comes I wont be able to enjoy the intimacy during the moment. Am I just not comfortable enough with him yet?
Yes I am autistic if anyone’s wondering.