I met this boy in November at a music event, and we got together, we got along really well and instantly clicked, however he lives 2 hours away from me but we still made an effort to text a lot, nothing was ever serious between us but we enjoyed texting. however in feb i was actually visiting family who live near him and while i was there i made an effort to visit him too, i loved his company and we arranged to meet 3 weeks later where i live and we had a great day, and then a few days ago he came to my house and slept over and we had a great time.
i really like him, i think hes perfect, but i just know the distance is very hard because we’re both 17 and going through such evolving years of life such as I’m going to university and hes going travelling to different countries, even tho we know it probably wont work out we still love eachothers company. However, last night i was at a party and i kissed my ex boyfriend, i was really drunk and was hit with an instant regret, i take responsibility that it was stupid, i dont speak to my ex and tbh i dont like him at all, i do not miss him and would never get back with him. But i feel so guilty? Me and current boy have never spoke about what we are or where this is going but we really like eachother and i know if he did that to me id be very upset, and the guilt is eating me up and i have cried a lot. If he was my boyfriend i would of never did that, im not a cheater but i feel like i have, im meant to stay at his house in a few days but i feel like i have betrayed him and idk what to do. Please help