I’m 23 years old and have moved around quite a lot around Europe. Now before you say anything about how moving around every 2-3 years doesn’t really help finding your “tribe”, I feel like being lonely is why I end up moving in the hopes that I find my group in a new city or it just feels like a justification for my lonelyness.
I do have many individual friends but I always have to call them or chase them to do plans. I am doing a masters program and even in my class I feel like at this point every person is part of a “group” and I simply just get along with everyone but not really have a group where I am included in the plans.
I think I’ve always been a great friend. I prefer listening to other people’s long problems and actually get excited when someone wants to share something with me. At this point even when someone asks for a huge favor, I feel amazing that they ask me and I put a lot of effort into it. I never talk behind anyone’s back and never share someone’s secret with others for attention.
I literally just enjoy other people’s company but I feel like they don’t enjoy mine. To put it simple, I always have to text people to be part of a plan and just feel like a good acquaintance that you see everyday that you say hi to at the local supermarket to everyone.
I have 1 good friend that lives in a different country and also a boyfriend but literally have no girl friends. I also feel like people are constantly annoyed by me even when I’m not doing anything. I want to know how their weekend was, want to compliment them etc. but just feel like it’s better to stay silent because they just seem so uninterested.
I never feel safe telling anyone anything because people start to pass it around and gossip about me. Also, I’m not shy at all. I always feel like it is very easy to start a conversation with a stranger and have 0 social anxiety. It’s more about worrying what others think of me. So can someone that feels like this or knows why I have this problem let me know, I will be forever grateful.🤍