Hi!
For the past couple of years I (31M) had this kink where I get off thinking about my girlfriend (30F) having sex with other people or masturnating thinking about other people. The thing I find most sexy about this isn’t so much the fact that I think about her having sex with other people (which is hot nonetheless) but the sexual freedom of such things. I also really enjoy when she wears revealing clothes in public or gets topless at the beach.
I am thinking about talking about it with her, but I’m not sure. First all all, it’s obviously an awkward conversation. We’ve been together for 8 years and never had other partners.
But most importantly, I don’t know if this kink is something that I just like as a fantasy or I could enjoy in real life. Like I masturbate think about it, but then as soon as I finish I don’t find it so sexy anymore (but I still wouldn’t be jealous or anything think about it after masturnating, so maybe I don’t find it hot because I just finished and sexual drive isn’t there).
How can I understand if it’s something worth mentioning to her?