Yes, people are awful. People suck. Unless you become a hermit, it’s unavoidable. To survive, you need money, to get money, you deal with people.
If you want to feel loved, you deal with people.
If you need help, you deal with people.
The world has always been vile and I really want to see the good in the world. Its hard to see it when the world just wants to be ugly. People have ulterior motives to helping, nobody wants to be there for you, and the very people you need at your side hurt you when you need them most.
Normally, this is the part where the obvious is the case. Surround yourself with a smaller circle. Talk to friends. Except I went to browse old stomping grounds….cringe, people I don’t remember on my friends list, and people who were best friends that ended up betraying my trust (but stay only in the event that that favor gets returned).
My family is saying I’m too young to be cynical…I’m in my 30s. I’ve tried hard to make a social dent…nothing.
Maybe it’s the isolation, the ugly world, abusive people, untrustworthy friends, and past cringe that’s making me like this. Maybe it’s the several months of 5 hours sleep. I don’t know. What are your thoughts?
Is this kinda thing normal? To just…not want to deal with anyone anymore?