i get insulted & harassed & bullied everytime i go out.

I cant go outside without being insulted & harassed & bullied by multiple people(it happens everyday).

Here is what happened today: waiting for bus bus 3 old women are laughing at me saying “look at her” and “should we tell her” (idk what they mean by should we tell her by the way, i dont know what waa unusual.).
Man sat next to me on bench talking to himself saying “she is weird” (i am the only one there and he is looking at me its obvious he is talking about me). On bus another guy who is about my age talking to himself saying insulting things about me saying i am weird and kept shouting at me called me “thing in the jumper” the saying horrible things. Then walking home group of guys made a pig noise (funny caude i am fat so obviously i am a pig).

This happens everyday. I come home everyday and cry myself to sleep and just wish i was dead because of how people treat me. I dont do anything wrong, i just mind my own buisness & look at the ground when i am walking (i dont even look at people) but still they hate me & act scared of me. I dont even know why.

And here are some more examples of what happens every time i go out;

Bus drivers always are rude to me but nice to everyone else, once i asked for my ticket the guy straight up told me no (for no reason he was just being rude)

Also some of the bus drivers i see regulary, when i am sat at the bus stop waiting to go home, i see them talking to eachother and when i am sat there they insult me and shout at me (saying this like; look its her, look at the size of her).
Went to the shops guy told me “you look like shit” and started laughing with his friends
Always get comments like “look at her face” and insulting things about my appearance (i am extremely ugly i know).

Last year went on holiday and went to buy some ice cream, lady at counter tells me :you cant have that wer ae not serving people like you”.

Walking home, group of adults (both men and women) looked at me and burst out laughing the guh said “look at her” “omg what is that” (they were full growm adults acting like teenagers)

Went in subway recenlty and the man working there called me a bitch.

Walking to bus stop again a man swears at me says “fucking hell you look like a whore” and starts shotuing “that girl is a whore”

Last week i went to buy a gift for my sister, two woman at the counter gave me the diritest looks and refused to serve me

At restaurant, couple next to me, the man points to me and says “look at her face’ and the woman says “dont say that i am sure they are nice…”

In high school everyday i would get people insulting my apperance and calling me aft and ugly.

I always get the same comments as well “look at her” “what is that” “why does she look like that” and calling me fat.

Went to supermarket two girls followed me around the entite time i was in the store yelling at me and insulting me (the cashier guy saw it but didnt do anything either)

Couple weeks ago i was again walking home a group of men said to me “i am going to fucking stab you” then started following me home

Two incidnets where i am on bus, one two girls take a picture or me while laughing. And another time it was guys this time talking to eachother and then take a picture or me saying “what is that”.

On a walks girls wouldnt stop harasisng me theb followed me home while shouting at me

Another time i was on a walk guy told i “had the creepiest face he had ever seen or i was the creepiest girl he had ever seen” (something a long those lines) and said that i looked “uncanny valley and not even human”

why cant people mind their own fucking buisness?.

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i am an outcast and easy target in every situation i am in. people mock, insult, laugh at me everyday. I always get abused in the street and out in public. and i am always left out of things, nobody wants to be arohnd me. i think he cause of all this is because i am extremely unattractive. being an ugly girl is awful, people treat you like you are worth nothing and to them you are just a miserable sad joke. i have been extremely ugly my entire life since childhood and no amount of makeup or losing weight will help me. my face is just so hideous and weird and my features are masculine i dont even look like a girl. i have a masculine flat body with no curves, my boobs already sag like i am an old woman, i have no butt and my body has no shape to it. i have extremely pale skin and blue veins all over my body and fat flabby thighs. as disgsuting as my body is my face is even worse. i have a huge big crooked nose, small eyes that are always so wide open i look like i am on drugs (also have a lazy eye), my face shape is too big and manly, my forehead is huge and hairline is receeding, and my lips are tiny making my face look manly. my skin is awful, always looks greasy no matter how many times i wash it and i am so pale i am literally as white as a corpse. also i have ugly freckles all over my face.

when i say i am ugly i genuinely mean it, if i ever talk about my looks in front of people they get awkward and dont deny it.  i am the ugliest girl i have ever seen people dont even know if i am a guy or girl – i try to dress feminine but it does not help because my body is so box shaped and boyish. i dont feel like a real girl instead i feel like a creature. i am invisible to everyone and i only exist for people to insult and belittle. i have never been hit on (flirted with), cat called, complimented, had a first kiss, lost my virginity, or had a boyfriend (i am 17 but almost 18 now). people never approach me first unless it is to insult me and mock me.
when i am not being teased or mocked then people just avoid me, and if i try to talk to someone they will ignore me or give me blunt short answers. even when i am walking down the street people cross and go the other way as soon as they see me. everybody either is rude to me or ignores my existence. i am always looked over, and left out in every situation.

i am literally laughed at when i go outside, many times people have pointed and laughed at me or i get people who stare at me then say insulting things about me. my entire existence is just a joke to everyone.

i always get dirty looks, insults, from people. i cant leave my house for a few minutes without hate from others. i am an easy target to people because of how hideous i am. and i am constantly harassed, picked on, laughed at, and insulted.

even my own family ignores me in public and leaves me out to walk behind them when they are together, they literally pretend they dont know me and my parents said they are embrassed to be seen with me.

i dont leave my house unless i have to now because i am so ashamed of my looks, also i never leave my house without wearing a covid mask because i am scared people will see my face. and when i do leave my house, even though i am wearing a mask that covers most of my face, people still give me looks of disgust.

i am so tired of people saying it is so easy for girls to get guys and people saying girls have it easier. its not true if you’re ugly. guys never acknowledge my presence unless its to make mean jokes or to insult me. i was bullied all through out school and highschool for my apperance and nothing has changed, people are still so rude and mean to me everywhere i go. i try to avoid eye contact or looking at people so i dont weird them out because i look so hideous and creepy, but people still seem scared and uncomfortable around me even when i am just minding my own buisness.

some days i try to dress up but it doesnt matter in the end, people still treat me the same. it is obvious how differently and badly people treat me compared to others. i experience people be direct and blunt with me yet still be so nice and friendly with other people. i feel like i dont even deserve respect from anybody. its like i am always get targerted for people to use as their punching bag.

i feel like i give off bad vibes to people. people are so rude to me it does not even matter what i am doing. i always get yelled at, followed, threatened, and i have had people take pictures of me.

i swear there has never been an time where a stranger has been nice to me or given me a compliment.

i leaving my house sends me into a panic attack, that with the fact that people love to hate me makes me loathe going outside. i cant even talk to people without shaking and suttering or just freezing up and going mute.

I hate myself so much and just go through my days feeling empty, numb, unmovtiavted and useless. i feel like i deserve everything bad that happens.

I want to die so bad. I cry everyday.