We had literally morphed into each other’s personalities at one point from being so close. I felt like she was really a friend. But then she just started getting distant from school, which was fine, but it turned from distance into never wanting to hangout with me at all.
I don’t know what I did. I still don’t know what I did. I’m looking back at our last messages when I told her that I was exhausted of her flaking on me and realize she didn’t give a fuck about me saying this, it was more like she was glad that I finally said I was moving on.
If she gave me cues earlier I would’ve never had to deal with this. I don’t know why she not only ignored me so much but then pretended to be my best friend for so long. She could’ve just been direct. I was never pushy. I gave her so much space that other people were shocked at how little we talked. I didn’t think she was busy with other people because to be honest she didn’t have any other friends at all.
I just don’t get it. I don’t get how you have so little friends, and you just suddenly decide one day that you’re tired of one of your only friends but keep pretending you’re not and putting up this facade. Again I really wasn’t being pushy. I asked her if she was depressed, if something was bothering her. Nothing. It just hurts. She could’ve said something from the start. It feels like four years of trying to get closer to her in vain. I just want to know why.