(yeah the title sounds stupid, im sorry)
I (18f) have been talking to this guy (27m) who i met on a dating app for a few weeks. So far it’s been very casual and chill. Last time we met i went home with him afterwards.
Even though I don’t know him well enough to really justify developing feelings, i have a big ass crush on him. I think about him all day and night. The only issue is that he’s living a completely different life than me: he has a million friends, he goes out to clubs and raves every week, he’s part of a techno music collective which is pretty successful in the underground techno scene where i’m from.
He’s also studying at a university to get a second degree and he works part time, like a serious adult office job.
Meanwhile I’m 18, I’m a highschool dropout because i ran away from home at 17 (dont worry im working on getting a highschool diploma), I’m working some uninteresting job at a restaurant. I literally only have 2 friends. I’m so painfully socially incompetent. Also, I’ve never been to any clubs or raves, both due to my age and due to my lack of friends. No offense to myself but I’m just kind of a loser.
I have so little experience with the things he knows so much of. I really like him. But i feel I’m not worthy of being liked by him. So far he seems ro be interested in me too, but I fear he will get bored of me. I really like him but this even worth pursuing?