I am now realizing how much I miss her.
I was dating this great girl during my senior year of highschool. We continued dating somewhat long distance while I was in college and I would come home to see her every weekend. She was my first kiss and my first and only love.
I broke up with her but I honestly forget why I did as I still loved her when I did. We were a good couple but not without our problems as all relationships have.
It has now been nearly 5 years since we broke up. I’ve had essentially not contact with her other than one time about a month or two after we broke up where we grabbed coffee as “friends”.
I am over her or at least I thought I was. For the last 4ish years I’ve been having a monthly dream where we are reunited. The dreams are good and I enjoy them and when I wake up I realize it’s a dream but I shake it off and do not think much of it.
Last night, I had this dream again and in this dream we got married. I was planning on marrying her and we even looked at engagement rings before I ended the relationship. I felt at the time that she didn’t appreciate me but when we broke up she balled (I cried too) and then she continued to communicate with me.
What do these dreams mean? I’m nearly 25 now and we broke up at 20. I haven’t had a serious relationship since and neither has she to my understanding.
What should I do. I know that in my heart I do love her as she was a huge part of my younger life. I’m not saying I want to necessarily date her but I do in my heart of hearts still love her and want the best for her.
Is there anything I should do? Should I try to contact her?
Please help/give advice.
Thanks