i’ve only had sex once and it was a while ago. it wasn’t the best experience, very quick and while i think he enjoyed it, i didn’t. i’ve kinda refrained from the idea ever since then. i want to find someone im very comfortable with but i haven’t been going out much and haven’t met any new people recently. and i have desires and urges that i can’t ignore. i just feel like since i’m so inexperienced all i do is overthink everything that could go wrong and about how maybe i won’t be able to satisfy him or won’t be what he wants, etc. there’s one man in particular that i am very attracted to. it’s so complicated though because he now lives in a different state and he’s a lot older than me, which makes me feel even more insecure about being inexperienced. he talks all the time about flying to see me but i think that adds so much pressure. imagine he came all this way and it doesn’t go how he wants and it’s not like we hookup and he leaves. he’d stay for like a week. and yeah i like him but not enough to fly across the country lol, i think he’s a tinsy bit crazy for that. and i don’t know him that well we’ve only met once. anyways i don’t know if there’s a trick to be less scared about it, i doubt it. maybe i just need to put myself out there. sorry to rant, thanks for reading lol.