Hey, I’m 28F, and since I moved countries at almost 18 I haven’t made any friends who stayed in my life to this day.
I thought I was being annoying chasing after people, so I calmed down and allowed people to choose to speak to me, but over the years, it’s like I’m good at striking up conversations, chatting, laughing, making friends, then after about a year, they speak less and less, until they become a memory.
I made 2 friends recently, both I knew online for over a year, and we had special bonds. But lately, everytime I want to talk to them, they’re either busy or with other friends. I get that, but it’s like I have to remind them with several texts that I’m still here. And they just leave a super short response and ghost me again. I’m getting emotionally exhausted. At this rate, I’m too tired too socialise with anybody because I know they won’t stay in my life. And it’s worse making friends irl because the people around me are no different, if not worse. What can I do to stop this cycle? It’s like damned if I do, damned if I don’t. I’m really starting to hate my friends now, but I don’t have anyone else…