I spent two years in a relationship with someone who was repetitively unfaithful. My next partner I got to know for about 6 months before deciding to make the big jump and we started to date. The first instance was finding out he had lied about only seeing me during our talking stage, which felt unnecessary as I had seen others and discussed it with him.
Then we just had countless incidents of him sexting or seeking out other women, including around 60 women on reddit. When we went to engage in a planned threesome he crossed every boundary I had set, including having unprotected sex with her, and then tried to bully me into letting them meet up again.
I watch porn pretty frequently and we did a lot during sex. I started to not be able to have vaginally orgasms and I can’t have a clitoral one at all without porn.
We’ve been separated for a month or so and I still cannot orgasm without some sort of cheating fantasy involved. But it makes me feel so crappy during and after. I do not think I have a cuck fetish or anything, the whole thing feels so horrible and not at all fun or sexy. I’m just wondering what other people’s thoughts are or if anyone else has experienced this.