I moved a lot as a kid (pretty much every 2 years or so) and have always had problems making friends. I have one friend that I met through trying to create a band. He is really cool but I don’t really have any interest in his friends. Whenever we hang out he brings them and it’s okay and all but we don’t have the same conversations around them. They’re just kinda dumb and say dumb shit.. Like I said, fine and all, still fun I guess but I always end up wanting to leave after a while. I feel weird about it cause why can’t I just hang with all of them and not feel awkward? They’re just all kinda dumb.. but I feel he finds it awkward when it’s just us hanging out solo. He always asks why I don’t come around more and I’m not sure how to put it. I mentioned it a little to him but mostly just felt like I was being kinda rude about his friends
I also feel crazy for even thinking about it this much I just haven’t had a lot of friends before. I’ve only ever had a small group of friends and it was out of mutual desperation. Feeling a little like a socially inept loser