I’ve been seeing this guy, and yesterday we went on our 5th date. We’re getting close, and there’s no doubt we like each other.
He spend the night at my place, and noticed one of my scars doing foreplay.
He asked what it was. I went totally blank, and before I could answer, he saw a few more, and asked again “what happened?”. Quickly, in a calm tone, he said “never mind”, and we continued the act.
We had sex, and didn’t talk about it afterwards. I felt thrown off, bc I feel like he might know what those scars are, but I didn’t know how to pick up and start the conversation.
I used to self harm, quite a few years back. My worst fear was anyone finding out, so my scars are only visible to people who see me without closeth on. I find it very uncomfortable to be confronted about, and it made the sex less enjoyable cause I was in my head.
I’m okay with what I’ve done, I’m over it now, but I’m still scared of other people’s reactions and judgements. I’m scared of how he would react to the conversation. I’m scared of overstepping a boundary, saying something too deep or whatever.
Do you think he knows what those scars was? Should I have a conversation with him about it, and if yes, how could I initiate it?
Thank you<3