I am really scared of eating out in parties. I have thought about it a lot as in “why” and I have come to realize that this fear is a result of a complex (or so I believe ) cobweb of circumstances.
I get intimidated when met with large crowds/ places I have never been to before. What makes this worse is the fact that I have really bad eyesight. Imagine the worst eyesight you can reasonably live with, just the bare minimum vision. You can navigate well, you can read, you can use smartphones and laptops and stuff but you can’t identify people’s faces if they are x feet away.
It’s difficult for me to find people I know when I go to crowded places and parties, I absolutely hate the awkwardness of looking around like a caveman, staring at people like a weirdo.
On the subject of eating, most parties I attend have a buffet system.since I got that shitty eyesight, I cannot scout the buffet well. I again hate the awkwardness of staring at people, being slow and all.
When we are eating, I suck at making conversations (because the way I was raised, a habit of not talking while eating was instilled in me).I then get self conscious giving rise to my fear.
What do you guys think I should do?