We’ve been seeing eachother for about 2 weeks now, i think this was the 6th time we hung out? We’ve cuddled and held hands both of which i really liked, like ive never felt this way with anyone type of thing we got going. But today we hugged and said our goodbyes and out of the blue he gave me a peck on the lips. I acted very nonchalant about it, but as soon as he left i legit broke down like??
The last time i had a “relationship” i was 12 and dated this guy who was 3 yrs older. We only hung out like 2 times and both times his friend came with. It was a really weird relationship.. ex: i was on the swing, and they were pushing me,, then he suddenly started groping me through the ropes on the swing. another time we were in a tent playing truth or dare and his friend dared us to kiss 20x infront of him which was really uncomfortable.
After that he ghosted me and hugged other girls infront of me, so i broke up after a while.
Also from ages 15-18 i struggled with depression, low self-worth and anxiety, idc if that has anything to do with it?
I thought i got over it but then i had such a dramatic reaction..
I was wondering if all this could have something to do with it?
Also because it was so sudden amd unexpected?
I really want to kiss him properly though, but again i think am not ready.. how can i tell him this?
Tl;dr:
Got unexpected kiss by the guy i really like, cried afterwards, wonder if it had to do with bad experiences i had as a kid.