I was feeling guilty and shame over sex and sexuality because I was coming from religious and conservative environment and beliefs. There are times I don’t feel guilt and shame over sex and sexuality. There are times I feel guilt and shame over it. It was awful feeling and I don’t wish it on anybody. There are times that I wanted to start spicy videos and stuff without feeling guilt and shame. There are times that I don’t want to start spicy videos and stuff with guilt, shame, and desperate. But I am grown adult tho not a child anymore. I do want to experience having sex and be comfortable with my own sexuality. I was afraid how they reacted to it. Thank you so much for listening and texting this. It’s means a lot to me.