Hey there. I was involved in a relationship with a severely manipulative and mentally ill woman for 3.5 years with a 6 month engagement. The end of the relationship resulted with her ghosting me.
I take full accountability for remaining in this scenario. Through therapy I realized I have very poor self esteem and tolerate behavior the average person wouldn’t. I am working on it. I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD and am getting treated for that. Therapy has been good, but I really feel like I am not getting anything more out of it. I am learning to express my boundaries more but it’s so uncomfortable right now. I used to go out quite a bit and would approach people. Now, I am terrified of that.
It’s been a year. I am still very stagnant. I am overweight. My business is struggling. I am sleeping way too much. Eating like shit. I understand this is my responsibility to fix. I am back living with my parents and am very ashamed.
I’ve bounced back from breakups before but this one has really crushed me. I am 38 years old.
Can anyone point me in the right direction?