Im 19(f) and a virgin but last night I experienced some sexual things with a guy for the first time and I havent been able to stop thinking about it and cringing. I dont know why, maybe because I was kind of drunk and I barely knew him. I feel so used, I didnt get the feeling that he cared that much about me. He was pretty respectful of my boundaries but I could also tell that he didnt always have my best interest at heart. I kind of enjoyed it? But i had to fake an O cause he just wasnt doing it for me and I just wanted it to end. I feel awkward with myself and I just dont like feeling this vulnerable. I feel like for my first time, it wasnt emotional enough. It just felt like him wanting a one night stand. What do I do? Is this normal? , Im usually confident about myself and Im not easily shaken but it seriously feels like I was stripped of my armor and Im a weak lamb all of a sudden