I (22f) have been in a relation with my bf (22m) for almost two yrs. We are both in clg and same class.
I was the one who proposed him. But I got hurt too much because of him “acting cool”.
On a one good day I started texting him like crazy. He was flirting with me and all. I was heads over heals on him and him flirting with me, I thought the feelings were mutual and rushed and proposed him. But when I asked about it to him, he said:” I talk to every girls I’m close with like that” ( which was a lie).
I was having a group of girls friends, I sort of abandoned them so that I can spend more time with him. But he took me with him and he will talk to his boys with me at his side. I felt so ignored. That was the first time I got ignored by him. I fought so many fights to make him understand what was he doing wrong. Just like this he treated me so badly. He will go all day without texting me claiming ” he does it better offline” and fail to do so. And will come at the end of the day and explain to me how he was enjoying gaming and anime but was thinking about me the whole time and all.
I have to fight for him with every little thing I expect from a person I like. The attetion, the care, the love, everything. He still fails to remember the littlest things I told him to do and not to because I like that way.
It was my final straw on that day when we both got equally hurt. I told him to keep his bag in a certain position since it was bothering me, he was unable to adjust it when I wanted. It was not the real reason why I was angry. It was the continuous pattern of not caring enough about me. So I yelled at him for not caring about my comfort. And we got angry and didn’t talk until noon. At noon he asked me to go eat, but I was talking to his frnds about some politics, he got ignored. When I was done I asked him to go eat, but he yelled back at me.
I thought now we are even, I will not talk to him first, because that’s what I do every single time. We didn’t talked for the next day. The day after that he came and told me I have no rights being angry coz I’m the only one who is wrong. At that day I lost my feelings for him completely.
We are still in a relationship but I don’t feel the way I used to. I’m just barely tolerating him. I don’t know how long I can hang on.
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TLDR **I’m disappointed in my boyfriend’s behaviour towards me. And I feel like I’m losing feelings for him. What should I do?**