My partner has a physical disability which I was aware of at the start of our relationship, it was manageable and we could still relatively partake in day to day activities.
However, last year we moved in together and it has been slowly getting more overwhelming. More and more unrelated health issues keep appearing, I keep having to take her to the doctors all the time, I get barely any time to myself, I have to drive her everywhere and help her with stuff, and it’s starting to feel like I’m more of a carer than a partner. The disability has definitely gotten worse and she cannot go anywhere by herself, I always have to accompany her. If she’s up at 7am for an appointment, guess what, I am too. She has no independence at all, which I feel like at the start, she could at least somewhat manage to get places herself.
I miss being able to walk places and live a normal life. I know that I may be a horrible person since none of it is her fault and I do feel so bad for her. I still care about her and love her but I feel like I need to take care of myself too. I want to explore the world and do so many things and it’s just a massive limitation. I’m so young still and I know during old age disabilities happen but it’s a lot to deal with at a young age whilst I’m still navigating life.
I’m not sure what to do as I care about her and love her still and she has no idea I’m feeling this way. I don’t know if I have it in me to break up with her. What do I do?