[Advice Needed]
Lately, I’ve been following advice on how to talk to people and how to control my anxiety so I’m doing pretty well. But I still have a problem with being myself around others. I can’t stand the whole idea “ fake it till you make it”. I’ve been “faking it” ever since and yet I’m still lonely. The problem is that I’m usually quiet and calm and reserved when I’m alone sometimes but at public, I’m loud, obnoxious and hyperactive. It’s like I have a whole other personality when I’m in public. Sometimes I try to express myself but I’d always give in to the pressure and activate my obnoxious self. I guess because all of the people who I envy are loud, rude and obnoxious too.