18 F all my life i’ve never really had to many friends. there was a time in middle school where i have absolutely none for 3 years. during that time it would not be uncommon for me to go to school for 7 hours and not say a word. i believe that this has stunted d me. i think i’ve missed out on so many things that i feel are normal. i feel like i’m just started high school even though i’m a junior. i can’t talk to guys at all and most of the conversations i have with people are very surface level and usually don’t last more than 5 minutes. i fear that i’m going to lose my one and only friend soon and i don’t know how i’m going to cope with being alone again. i fear that me isolating myself has damaged me in the sense that i’ll never be normal or have normal relationships. i think i’m going to be a loner for the rest of my life. i don’t think i can adapt.