When I tell my ex partner no to sex he gets really upset and I don’t know how to explain that I’m scared to say no. So I lay motionless and let him do his thing and just take it. We broke up months ago, but still live together due to financial difficulties and no family nearby. I’m working on moving out with my daughters, sadly I was a stay at home mom that didn’t have a career. I’m back at school, trying to get out of this situation. Why if it’s so obvious that im not okay with it does he proceed? I’ll clench my fists, try not to move at all or make a sound. Why can’t he respect that I say no and not have to blow up into a tantrum?
UPDATE: I have stayed silent about this with everyone in my life, so this was the norm to me and somehow I let him convince me it wasn’t so bad. Thank you for your comments, I reached out to my sister out of state, told her everything and I’m leaving this Friday, she paid for my flight and said she’d help me get back on my feet while I finish school. Thank you all for the hard truth and wake up call. For my safety and my daughters, I will be leaving when he’s at work. I have enough past text messages from him threatening to hurt me and that he doesn’t want the girls in his life to feel confident he won’t pursue us bc I will show these to any law enforcement. Please advice on what else I can do when leaving.