I’m ready to admit I don’t want to be alone anymore, however, commitment in the way of dating is incredibly scary to me. I am frankly have too much childhood trauma to understand what the hell I am supposed to do, and how not to screw the entire thing up.
What I would like to try first is a deep bond with someone with promises to each other, commitment, but something I can deal with rather than the incredible amount of stress a typical relationship sparks in me.
A guy or girl who I could see myself being with all the time, getting up to mayhem together.
I have dated online, but as soon as we mutually confessed our love to each other and became a “thing” I felt myself smothered, afraid, and trapped, the flirty person I was disappears completely.
What do I do?