The thought of giving my bf a bj and letting him finish in my mouth is so hot to me. I fantasize about doing it. But in 4 years, I’ve only gone down on him a handful of times, I love his reactions. He’s very respectful and I do enjoy it. He never cums that’s way bc it’s a foreplay before sex.
I think about it all the time. I WANT to do it. I WANT to give him more bjs. But when we start having sex, I chicken out and don’t do it at all. He never complains, never asks, we have a very fulfilling sex life, but this needs to change. I know he wants this and I want to do it and not freeze. It’s almost like I need to be told? Bc I can’t make myself do it which is irritating.
What have any of you done to help with this? I feel like this is a confidence issue on my part, and a perspective issue. And maybe some fear too.
My first ever bj experience in high school he came in my mouth without telling me, I wasn’t ready, it was not a positive experience for me and I never did it again. I’m 31 now… my boyfriend does not deserve to have my past issue projected onto him. He has done nothing wrong.