Hey everyone,
I, 18F, recently ended things with my boyfriend 21M due to some issues, including infidelity on his part.
One major point of issue in our relationship was my decision to wait until marriage before losing my virginity. Initially, I wasn’t ready for sex but didn’t want to admit it, so I said I wanted to wait until marriage. This caused problems as my boyfriend wasn’t happy about it.
Throughout our relationship, we engaged in sexual activities, and we even tried to have sex, but it never quite worked out. There were issues with him getting it to fit in me, times when I was too dry, or I simply wasn’t in the mood and couldn’t get turned on. On top of that, I struggle with depression and low self-esteem, which might contribute to my low libido.
I’ve been trying different things like taking ashwagandha and beet root supplements, exercising, and eating well to increase my libido, but it’s not working as I hoped. While I do want to have a healthy sex life and plan to be more open in my next relationship, I’m worried about being cheated on again because of my low libido.
It doesn’t just extend to relationships but I’ve also noticed that I can get turned on by watching porn initially, but then I feel a wave of disgust, especially if it seems like the people in the videos aren’t genuinely enjoying themselves.
I’m feeling a bit lost and unsure of what to do next. I don’t want my low libido to sabotage future relationships or lead to being cheated on again. Any advice or insights would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your help!