I’m scared of kissing, of messing it up, being awkward, I feel like I’m being watched by everybody around me and I feel shame.
This is girl I like, I think about her a lot, I get excited to text her.
But today she kissed/made out w/ me I was absolutely stunned, I couldn’t react, although I enjoyed feeling her lips, I didn’t feel love or butterflies, I couldn’t speak my brain was blocked, it got awkward, I tried saying “I love you” but it didn’t feel right, it didn’t come out my mouth, I’m scared she will think that I don’t feel anything for her, I even had to convince myself I did love her after that kiss.
I have a problem and I don’t know how to help myself