Hi. After 4 1/2 years and 4 months of being engaged I called off the engagement and moved back home. I actually posted in r/relationship_advice about the situation that broke the camels back and I was overwhelmed with the responses and replies.
With a lot of emotional codependency and insecurities on his end (we’ve gotten in huge fights about me wearing too much make up, me changing after we moved from where we met, me wanting to be a server to make extra money and he feared the attention I’d get or how often I’d get hit on, or questioned me on new hobbies I wanted to try like Jiu Jitsu). To then have him upset that I wanted my maiden name on my college diploma I’ll be getting after I graduate in August.
I went home. Sat him down and told him we are not ready for marriage, this keeps happening and happening and it’s just not working anymore. I packed my stuff and moved back home. I’m trying hard to not feel like a failure, ending an engagement and being 28. Moving back home. Starting over. But it never felt right and I’m not perfect, I wasn’t healthy in the relationship either but I couldn’t shake that nagging gut punch feeling that was ruining moments that were supposed to be happy, fun, and good. It never felt right.
I’m scared. I’m so sad. I feel like I took 10 steps backward. Has anyone gone through this?